:: Even the stars know whatsup ::

They are telling me to relax and just do what comes to me, and not to worry so much.....

Aquarius
Quickie: Stop thinking so hard about how to reach people. Just start saying what you want.

Overview:You need to slow way down and focus on what you need to get done. It could be that you're heading in the wrong direction, but that doesn't mean you can't change course in the very near future.

...........well the problem here is, that i am having hard time right now with lonliness, yes this may be a blog that is kinda gay, but you can't help the emotions that happen to ya, so owell. When my girls aren't here, or are doing their own thang, and I am not with them, and even when I am with them somtimes, I feel so lonely. I think everyones major scare in life is being alone. And well it is driving me nuts. I have always hooked up with the dick heads, and the ones who I have fallen for (not in love just like them alot) and then they are just Assholes, who don't care, and use me. And well now I just push everyone else away, even the ones who wouldn't hurt me. And it is starting to drive me nuts. Like I want a relasionship, but I don't want a rushed one, or when I get close to being in one, I get scared and I distance myself from the guy. And well, I see a continuing pattern, and it fucking sucks. I love my girls, and love spending time with them, but I am not going to be single my whole life. And yeah I am still young, so right now I want to be single, and I love it/hate it. But i am not going to rush into anything, my last relasionship SUCKED, lol. And I don't want that to happen again, we faught too much, and it was just nothing but drama. And I don't want to go thru that again. And well I am going to take my time, and just let things flow how they should. But it sucks to have to wait and see what happens, but owell.

Sitting at work now, just talking to Nick, and Grace, guess I just need to go out tonight like me and Jessica have been talking about, and have some fun, and get my mind off this bullshit. And just have some fun.

Well I am out of here, back to doing absolutely nothing, DAMNIT, I need more work to do.